Shit, man. I decided to start eating "healthy" because starving just wasn't working for me. Because I ALWAYS end up bingeing. I must of been out of my fucking mind. I'm 154 fucking pounds. I NEED to starve. Food will always be there. I can get by without it for a few months. When I get to my goal weight, I will allow myself to eat HEALTHY. Super fucking healthy. God I'm such a fat pig. When swimsuit season comes around I'm going to be FUCKED if I keep eating like this. I need to lose about 30 pounds to even begin feeling comfortable in a swimsuit. 30 pounds in 3 months...I can do it. I KNOW I can. The thing about reaching a goal weight is that it is 100% possible. I just have to get out of my own way!